a full 180

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HEY.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

GOOD THINGS ARE COMING.

fuck being sad. i'm going to gaslight myself into being happy.

my sister got me this dress :) look at how happy i look

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  1. AnonymousMay 6, 2024 at 3:09:00 AM GMT+10

    woahhh did you make this website?? thats so cool - anon from secsoc heheheh

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    1. alahishMay 6, 2024 at 3:11:00 AM GMT+10

      i did not make this website hahah this is just under google's blogger thing :)
      when i finally make a website it'll be cooler xx

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