main character syndrome

I've sat down to write about this at least 20 times over the last couple of days, but every time I try, my words keep failing me. My thoughts and feelings are too incoherent to express, yet they continue to overwhelm me and make it almost impossible for me to breathe. I want to talk about how I feel, and share with another person these emotions that seem to have found a permanent home in my mind, but I just can't manage to do it. In another draft, this is what I wrote to explain this tumult I am experiencing. "it's like i want to talk, but i can't open my mouth. once i manage to, it seems like the words won't come out. when i string together a couple of sentences, you can't hear my voice. and finally, once i somehow overcome all these obstacles, i'm speaking a language you don't understand."   Nevertheless, I am hoping that maybe today I'll be able to put words in an arrangement that will reduce this awful weight that I seem to be carrying