tattoos, duty, identity
where do i go from here? who do i know in here? i want it all again. who can i call again? it's quite embarrassing to admit, but i don't do very well when i'm fully alone. i can stay in a room by myself and i can function fine, but when the house is as eerily quiet as it is today, i start to fall apart. i'm not sure if it is because i feel like i've been abandoned or if i am just comfortable when no one can watch me. my darling boy is away for the next couple of days, and my sister usually spends most of her time away from home, which means that i have this slightly too big apartment all to myself for a while now. too much time all alone if you ask me. i don't think it's any good for anyone, least of all me. i'm on mood stabilisers now, by the way. they're supposed to help me not feel so overwhelmingly sad that i can't get up, and not so excitedly happy that i can't come down. i think that's a good thing. i'm not sure if they're w...